You really want it. Silly but it won't leave you alone. Believe in yourself, try hard, cause if you don't you won't have it anyway. If you just stay, afraid of the outcome, you'll never have your day. If you don't try, then don't cry. You did nothing to be consoled from defeat. Learn from it and believe. Succeed not retreat.
"If you won't fight for what you want, don't cry for what you lose."