You are afraid of all the steps, upsets, failures, and resets. You find yourself walking in circles, talking yourself into believing your making progress yet you feel the truth is stocking you. You're afraid of it. But if you don't try you won't succeed. All you reach is regretting of self-defeat. You need to accept, yearn for the steps, upsets, failures, and resets. That is what creates success.
"If something is hard then it's probably worth it."