You want to escape reality, letting your mind fall into the abyss. You won't see what you miss. Blocking yourself from the situation at hand makes it hard to understand where you're needed. They yearn for you so you concede and start to believe but then there's reality. You can escape and become static forsaking your future or you could be the suture of your reality. Succeeding creates an understanding that reality is too, a good escape.
"Find happiness in success, not refuge."