It's hard to constantly go, go, and go without knowing if it's gonna pan out in the end. I just pretend that it will, try to extend my skills but my mind disapproves. Moving my mind back to my Anxiety telling me to give up, quit, yet I still continue. I gotta be strong and carry on. I don't want to look back and wonder, did I try hard enough? I want to reach the end trying even if it's blindly.
“You never know when your luck is gonna kick in.”
You have issues dealing with the ceiling being too short. You can't see out the window, it's too dark. You wanna start a fire but have no spark. You don't understand why this is happening because you're not letting go of what doesn't need to be. If you let yourself get bent it'll be imminent that you'll be stressed. It'll just be what it is. Relax, be there for yourself. Understand your situation, surroundings, and your goals.
“It doesn't have to be what it is.”
It's early in the morning and like a lot of people, it's too early. My bones pop, my mind flops, and my body wants to drop. It used to be, in the morning, I was up hopping around with no problems getting on with my day. I wish, I could say, it were still that way but time flew by so fast and now, even faster. I'm not young but not old either. Being stuck in age limbo is surreal, as if I see my past years, as well as, my future. I see the wisdom that I've gained from the past and how my body is breaking down with age. You can't teach your children this concept. It can only be learned. Your job is preparing them for their future, setting the foundation for their wisdom to rest upon. Leading by example is the only way to do that. Wise lead the blind because the wise were once blind.
"Be their leader."
It was so much fun. Spending time with my family, the birthday gift for my son. Sanity in the making. Relaxing while rushing to my kids parade. No sharade, I'm loving the experience while finding it hard to be persistent at keeping up with them. It's about them, it all stems from love, compassion, realizing that my life revolves around them.
"It's about them."